I am slowly learning day by day, that we all make mistakes. Some are big and some are small, but we all make mistakes. All mistakes can be forgiven, but some can never be forgotten. When our mistakes impact the people in our lives negatively, we must not seek reconciliation, we must look within to discover what within us needs to change.
When you hurt someone, something is wrong with you. You are manifesting a negative feeling that you are projecting onto another person. The answer to fix the problem is always within yourself.
You may never win back the affection of the people you hurt and that is okay. It will hurt and make you sad but always remember that you cannot change the past. You can take the lesson you have learnt and apply it to the future and become a more positive individual. You will make new friends and meet new people. Make sure you don’t make the same mistake twice with the new people that you meet.
When you are happy and you love yourself from within, you won’t make the same mistakes. Remember this, people come into your life for a reason and some stay for only a season. Maybe your mistake caused their season to end abruptly. That’s okay. It just means that their reason was to teach you a lesson about something within yourself that you need to fix.
It’s okay. Learn. Move forward. Forgive yourself. Don’t repeat the mistake.
Going through a breakup has had me seeking inspiration from a variety of sources (on the internet and through people). These sources could simply be comedic or sad or happy but what I realized most of all is that I was looking for an answer to my heart ache and pain. I was looking for an answer to my disposition and sadness. I was looking for the answer from the world as to why someone couldn’t love me the way I loved them. Ultimately, I couldn’t find an answer but what I did find was a video on YouTube by Ashley C. Ford about love and risk.
Love and risk.
What does that mean?
I had to listen to this video 11 times before I truthfully had the answer I was looking for within myself. When you love someone, you risk it all for them. You fight. Ford said “Love is active”. When you love someone, you fight and open up yourself to someone else. You risk your heart in order to be with someone else. Love should make you grow and prosper. You fight for this to happen. As I listened to this talk I realized that while my relationship had love, it never had fight.
The second thing that Ford said was a quote from Maya Angelou, “Love Liberates, it doesn’t bind”. It really does. Love allows you to open up and to free yourself emotionally because you have found someone that you trust enough to break down your walls with and let in. You have found freedom in your love. That is a beautiful thing. She also said about her partner was, “he has never asked me to be less so that he could be more…he has only encouraged me to expand…he has liberated me in some ways”. I realized that in my relationship, I was not asked to be less so that he could be more, but I always FELT that I had to be less so that he could be more. I felt that I had to work less to give him more of my time so that he could be happy. I felt like I had to do less because he was doing nothing, and that made me feel stagnant and frustrated. I never felt liberated with this man. I felt stuck. I didn’t feel encouraged to expand. I felt encouraged to stand still. While he has now found some degree of success in his life (from what I can see), I have determined that we were not for each other as we could not spawn the desire for more within each other. We could not liberate each other. For that reason, you must let go.
The third thing Ashley Ford says, is that “Love will never let you down, ultimately”. We have all had our hearts broken in some way and we have all had to rebuild and restructure, but no matter what happens, loving someone and risking for them is never a mistake. I loved him fully and thoroughly and I tried hard to express this to him. While I held on for a bit too long and found it hard to let go, I know that there is a lesson to be learnt here and I am finding out what that is day by day.
I realized that the only way to move on is to inspire yourself to move on. You need to love and liberate YOURSELF. Take risks in your career, life and friendships. Expand on your knowledge of the world. Go on an adventure. Make new memories. Be free. You can always fall in love again, but you can never get time back. Go and be free.
“Keep praying for your family. God is hearing you.” – Sprinkle of Jesus
This quote means to me that I need to pray for those close to me. Anyone I feel is family even friends need prayer and I need to invest my time and energy into them so that God can continue to bless them.
“Spiritual growth is being aware when there is a storm happening inside of you, you still remain prayful as it passes by” – Sprinkle of Jesus
Follow me on my Sprinkle of Jesus journey for the month of February. Everyday, I will write out the quote that is sent to me and I will explain its relevance to me at this time in my life.
The storm in me is currently that I am lacking self love and I am overthinking damaging things that were said to me, which has caused my mental health to deteriorate. I need to learn to reach out to God more than I have been in order to find peace within. I have to continue to pray in order to get through this time as my faith and my strength will guide me through.
Last night as I was watching the Grammy Awards, I saw Chris Stapleton’s performance and instantly my favourite song by him started to play in my brain.
Unlike most people, after my heartbreak, I found it truly challenging to be able to listen to break up songs (unless they were by John Mayer). When I heard Tennessee Whiskey for the first time I didn’t become sad about my heart break, but I became hopeful about love for the future. Every work that Stapleton articulated didn’t represent my former love of heartbreak but it allowed me to envision a different kind of love that I could experience. That’s the beauty of music; you can always find a song to identify with in every case and for every feeling and that is the greatest gift that we have in song.
ITS 2018! I feel like after the 2017 I have had, the beginning of a new year is the best way to start fresh and move forward in the most positive way possible. I believe that only good things can come from this year and that I have to dedicate it to working on myself and my career. Positive thinking is key to growth and success moving forward. I have to continue to work on that as the year goes by.
I will continue to occasionally write on this blog as it has been my baby since 2012, but I don’t know what other content to focus on in the new year. I will continue to think about this.
Anyways, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL. Best wishes for 2018! You can do anything you set your mind to.
Today is one of my more sad days – it is the last day of my relationship. I have been listening to different songs and reflecting upon how I feel and I keep on playing songs from Zac Brown Band. At this difficult time, they are all resonating with me, well, the ones that I like are. Your Majesty is one of the bands newer songs and I am really enjoying its composition. The lyrics are truly beautiful and catchy and make you feel emotions. Its easy to tie this song to a person or event or spiritual sense just by following the lyrics. Anyways, I hope that this song brings a sense of calm and peace to whatever your day brings. Remember, that there is beauty in all things, even the saddest things at the most heartbreaking times.