Khloe Kardashian Spoke To Me

Lately, I have been going through a very rough time emotionally, mentally and spiritually. I feel like nothing in my life can get better. Its hard to get out of bed in the morning. I am struggling with the most mundane of things. Yesterday, Khloe Kardashian (Yeah, I know but don’t judge), posted a series of tweets and honestly they calmed down my anxiety instantly. I hope that maybe this can resonate with you as well. We are not perfect human beings but maybe we can be better people and our lives can get better as well. I hope that this can happy for me in the future.

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New York 2018 & the 10 Things I Discovered

new-york-20I went to New York City, in the middle of a Major Depressive Episode and I had the time of life.

but…

I took very few pictures.

This blog post isn’t about me showing you what I did through a photo log or telling you stories, it is more about me explaining how this was the most informative journey I have taken in my life over the last year. I had a lot of realizations and I lot of moments of anxiety but I experienced something I genuinely hadn’t felt in over 8 months – Happiness. The great thing too is that when I came home to Toronto, a lot of good things began to come to me. I found some new friends (and I will write a blog post about that soon), I became more accepting of who I was, I understood what brought me to where I am today, and I called all the people that loved me. Somethings were hard to see but all revelations were beautiful in their own right. Here are the 10 feelings I had while in NYC:

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  1. This is going to be a great trip – I was super excited to be taking this journey to a new City and to be experiencing something on my own that I have wanted to experience for a while again.
  2. Music on a long bus ride is Paramount – Having a great road trip playlist sets the foundation for any great trip.
  3. I miss my ex – This was the hardest part. We had always discussed going to NYC together and going without him at the time when we broke up last year was actually a really emotionally challenging thing to do.
  4. A Great AirBnb sets the stage – My airbnb was great and I was so grateful to have stayed there. It was actually sad to leave and I did cry a bit. I learned so much about myself in bed at night in that apartment in NYC. I will never forget.
  5. Harlem is great – Everyone should go.
  6. I am the most toxic person in my life – I was walking on Broadway, looking at all the couples together, and realizing that I could have had that today, if I didn’t over react and I tried to communicate better. Maybe if I hadn’t tried to hurt other people by writing mean things and forcing relationships, I would be more emotionally sound today.
  7. I decided to change my life –  I realized that the past is the past and I could make my future so amazingly bright. I was in a new City where no one knew me and I could start a new chapter of a book right here. So, that’s what I did. I knew it wouldn’t be easy or be overnight, but I new that I had a blank page to start on. I was going to be a good person.
  8. I made a new friend – I found a new friend on the evening I committed to being a better person. I went to a comedy show alone. She had just recently gotten divorced and had come to NYC for a fresh start. We were both on each other page ones. We still talk till this day.
  9. I am only 23 –  I haven’t ruined my life. I have been luckily brought to a place where I am old enough to understand my wrongs, yet young enough to still have enough time to correct them for the better. A change is gonna come and its going to be a blessing.
  10. The air smelled like him and I cried in front of his favourite store – This trip didn’t heal wounds, but it allowed me to accept all of my wrongs, put forth the effort to change them, and to put faith into the universe. Maybe I will always love him and that will always be okay. I realized that he will always be a part of me and that is okay. Time may not heal all wounds, but time made me realize that everywhere offers you a fresh start and that there is beauty in all things.

Thank you for reading.

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You Need 2 Things: Motivation & Encouragement

Today, I listened to Corey Calliet’s Instagram video where he discussed the two things we need to be successful in life: Motivation and Encouragement. We get encouragement from others and that’s why we need to surround ourselves with positive and supportive people. We also need to then find motivation and that comes from within. These are Corey’s 4 principles for staying motivated:

  1. Dedication
  2. Discipline
  3. Consistency 
  4. Sacrifice

You need these 4 principles plus encouragement to find success in anything you do.

Preparation + Opportunity = Luck

Stay lucky. Stay Motivated. Be Encouraging.

Day 15: Pray

“Remember the days you prayed for the things you have now”

This is simple. Always remember that even when times are rough and nothing is looking hopeful for you, think of all the things that you have today that you dreamed of when you were young. Be thankful for all the things you prayed for and pray for more because one day your dreams will come true.

Day 14: Transition

“Transitions are an inevitable part of life. We transition from childhood to adulthood. We transition from singleness to being married. We transition form working for others to life as am entrepreneur. Transitions are more complex than going from one season and entering another, but transitions are about successfully handling the time of the in-between”

Everyone goes through changes and challenges in life. In order to grow and improve as people, we need to learn from the things that we learn at the different stages in life. For me, going through a break up has been the biggest transitional moment of my life to date. Not only did I have to learn how to let go of someone I loved, but I also had to let go of a dream and I have never ever had to let go of a dream. Growing up, we are always told to hold on to our dreams to fight for the things we want. For the first time in my life, this didn’t hold true. Dreaming became more complex and I am in the phase of handling the in-between of that situation. I think that first love teaches you a lot about yourself, especially when you lose it. Learning about yourself, and learning how to love yourself is the most imperative way to transition successfully. The things you need will come to you in time, and that is the most important thing to understand. Love where you are today and work on yourself to move forward successfully. Happy Thursday ❤

Day 13: Weak

“Learn to celebrate your strengths, be prepared to address your weakness”

This is a simple one. Know what you are good at and use that to your advantage. Know what you aren’t great at, embrace it and work on it. This is the only way that you will be able to grow your intelligence and to teach others about what you know. Celebrate all that you are, and also all that you can be. You are as weak as you conceive yourself you be.

Day 12: Voicemail

“When the past calls, let it go to voicemail. It has nothing new to say.”

Lately, I have been in my head overthinking about the past. Thinking about what I would have said and done differently if I had the chance to do things all over again. I have learnt, slowly but surely, that all the mistakes that we make in life happen to teach us important lessons we need to learn. If we become introspective in our search for our selves, we will find a lot of meaning behind these lessons. We will find the ways in which we need to grow and change to become better people. I interpret this quote not as the past coming back in the form of a person, but the past coming back as your thoughts. You have thought about it and resolved it already. Now, just get your brain to put it away and move forward onto something new.

Day 11: Delay

“Behind every delay there is a miraculous explanation”

I think that this means that we need to be hopeful when things seem to be moving slowly and not necessarily going our way, we need to understand that sometimes there are delays in life in order to show us that good things are coming. We have to wait for good things to come to us in order to appreciate them more. Not all things that we want come quickly or easily and that is okay. Sometimes our greatest advances come from our biggest set backs.

Right now, I am trying to use my heartbreak to inspire changes and growth in my life. I know that it is time for me to move forward and progress from this and that positive changes will come when I invest in myself. The explanation for my delay is that I need to look introspectively at myself in order to mature for the future.

Day 10: Time

“God’s perspective is unlimited. His timelines extend past our comprehension”

I think this one is to show us that there are many different outlooks to take from different situations. There are many different ways in which something can be perceived or can happen for us. We need to stop expecting our plans for the future to take effect immediately when we can’t exactly predict the future. We need to have hope in the process and have faith that we will understand everything in due time.

“Man’s Rejection is God’s Protection”

“Man’s rejection, is God’s protection”

This is a quote that I have been living by lately.

Last week, I was listening to an episode of the Lady Gang podcast featuring Jeannie Mai from The Real. As I was listening, she was discussing a lost opportunity years prior to her success and how that rejection allowed her to find something better and more fulfilling. This quote was enlightening to me and I began to think about all of the times when rejection has spawned an otherwise positive outcome for me.

For example, I had been working in the same seasonal job position from my mid teens into my early 20’s. For the first time in 6 years, I was blindsided when I got an email that stated that my services would not be needed for that upcoming summer. I became frantic and depressed. I took the first job that was offered to me because I was so nervous to be unemployed, even though it wasn’t related to my field. When I went to job orientation, I became suddenly depressed and I knew that it wasn’t for me. I went home and cried but then I suddenly woke up and decided to apply to every job opportunity so that I could focus on my career and not my loss. When I opened my email, the company that I had previously interned at had a position open for me and I jumped at it! I have been there now for 3 years, working in my field of study and loving it.

The rejection in this case was my protection as it allowed me to grow in my career instead of basking in my comfort.

I think about my break up with my ex as well. His rejection was my protection. His rejection allowed me to self reflect and work on the parts of myself that weren’t so great. It also allowed me to learn that self love is the most important factor in life and that we can achieve this through a belief that we have the power to do all things because of a higher power (Call it God or not). I began to believe in the universe and this manifested into me believing in myself. I began to love the others around me more. Mostly, I learned to let go of people and negative situations that no longer served me.

I also learned what I did and didn’t want in a man so that hopefully I will get the chance to get love right in the future.

These were lessons I had to learn.

So, the next time you feel that getting declined for something is the worst thing in the world, always remember this: Man’s rejection is God’s Protection. You won’t see it right away, but you will soon see it manifest into a different and better opportunity.

Some articles:

http://theprayingwoman.com/sometimes-rejection-is-gods-protection/

https://www.huffingtonpost.com/maddisen-k-krown/coping-with-rejection_b_2586145.html