Since my awful break up this year, I have really felt confined by the space and place I am in. I am finishing up my undergrad and about to start a masters, but I feel trapped in my environment. My goal and hope for the remainder to 2018, is to be able to free my soul through deep mediation and travel.
I want to travel and see new places and create new memories and experiences. If after I travel, I am still unable to be happy with everything in life, then I will determine that most of what I feel is internal and not environmental.
On my travel bucket-list I will be attempting to visit:
- Ottawa, ON, Canada
Lets see if I actually make it and follow my travel tab to see me write about my experiences.
I was watching the TV show Scandal and this song started playing. At first, I listened to the song and I thought it was beautiful at first. Later, I added it to my Spotify playlist and really listened to it for the first time. This song has truly resonated with me in my heartbreak. I was brought to tears. You never think that someone will leave you when everything is good and nothing you say or ask can ever make them turn around and stay. You will question everything that went wrong and everything that you could have changed but that will never bring them back.
“Why didn’t you stay?”
I ask myself this question everyday. Why didn’t I stay at first and why didn’t he stay at the end. We can torture ourselves forever with these questions and try to find answers but that only stops our growth forward.
This song is the lyrical embodiment of heartbreak. Using the changes of the seasons to describe lost love is perfect. As we go through the changing seasons without the one we love we will learn new things about ourselves and our place in our relationship and be able to move forward and grow. Always move forward and never back and even if you move back, remember the sun will come out tomorrow and a new season will come and you will be just fine my dear.
I never dreamed you’d leave in summer, but now I find my love has gone away. Why didn’t you stay…
“Transitions are an inevitable part of life. We transition from childhood to adulthood. We transition from singleness to being married. We transition form working for others to life as am entrepreneur. Transitions are more complex than going from one season and entering another, but transitions are about successfully handling the time of the in-between”
Everyone goes through changes and challenges in life. In order to grow and improve as people, we need to learn from the things that we learn at the different stages in life. For me, going through a break up has been the biggest transitional moment of my life to date. Not only did I have to learn how to let go of someone I loved, but I also had to let go of a dream and I have never ever had to let go of a dream. Growing up, we are always told to hold on to our dreams to fight for the things we want. For the first time in my life, this didn’t hold true. Dreaming became more complex and I am in the phase of handling the in-between of that situation. I think that first love teaches you a lot about yourself, especially when you lose it. Learning about yourself, and learning how to love yourself is the most imperative way to transition successfully. The things you need will come to you in time, and that is the most important thing to understand. Love where you are today and work on yourself to move forward successfully. Happy Thursday ❤
This is my Health and Wellness tip of the day: let them go.
Let go of the people who no longer serve a purpose in your life in order to grow.
Don’t get bitter and think that they weren’t for you and that’s why they are gone. Think about the fact that they were for you for a time and that you now need to let them go because you both need to grow.
Thank them, whether internally or externally, for the time and role they spent in your life and then keep on letting your heart be thankful for them walking in and out when they did. Every one you meet that touches you has the power to transform and change your life. Grow and show yourself the power you have gained from their presence. Do not dwell in their non existence in your space, but flourish in YOUR gratitude of their existence in the world. For you would not have had the lessons you had if they were not there, nor would you have been able to find the tools to grow that you needed.
Be thankful and let them go. More people will come, that is a fact. Learn and let go of the ones who have finished teaching you how to be good to all the others.
Last night as I was watching the Grammy Awards, I saw Chris Stapleton’s performance and instantly my favourite song by him started to play in my brain.
Unlike most people, after my heartbreak, I found it truly challenging to be able to listen to break up songs (unless they were by John Mayer). When I heard Tennessee Whiskey for the first time I didn’t become sad about my heart break, but I became hopeful about love for the future. Every work that Stapleton articulated didn’t represent my former love of heartbreak but it allowed me to envision a different kind of love that I could experience. That’s the beauty of music; you can always find a song to identify with in every case and for every feeling and that is the greatest gift that we have in song.
Today is one of my more sad days – it is the last day of my relationship. I have been listening to different songs and reflecting upon how I feel and I keep on playing songs from Zac Brown Band. At this difficult time, they are all resonating with me, well, the ones that I like are. Your Majesty is one of the bands newer songs and I am really enjoying its composition. The lyrics are truly beautiful and catchy and make you feel emotions. Its easy to tie this song to a person or event or spiritual sense just by following the lyrics. Anyways, I hope that this song brings a sense of calm and peace to whatever your day brings. Remember, that there is beauty in all things, even the saddest things at the most heartbreaking times.
I have a thing for soul songs. Artists like Luther Vandross, Marvin Gaye, Brook Benton and Otis Redding are a few of the artists I enjoy listening to when I’m in the mood to relax. I was watching my new summer favourite show, HBO’s Girls, and I heard this song at the end of one of the Season 5 episodes.
Ain’t No Love in the Heart of The City is a song by Bobby ‘Blue’ Bland and it appears to be is most well known song. I’m not sure what city this song is exactly referencing too but this song is mainly about a man mourning his love that has moved away from him, or out of the city. His is describing what his day to day life has been lacking without his love near and it has such a personal tone to it that you cant really help but to fall in love with the lyrics.
In relation to the show GIRLS, this song is used at the end of a scene where Hannah, one of the main characters, hitchhikes a ride from a stranger back into New York when she becomes stranded in the country. During this ride, the driver and Hannah begin to discuss their love lives and then express the way that they see New York. Hannah sees New York as being the perfect place for her creativity while the driver sees New York as a new start to his life. This song was the perfect fit to the end of this episode which is about two people losing/leaving the ones that they loved due to an unhealthy relationship. I quite enjoyed this episode and song and I hope that you enjoy it too.