Never Dreamed You’d Leave in Summer

I was watching the TV show Scandal and this song started playing. At first, I listened to the song and I thought it was beautiful at first. Later, I added it to my Spotify playlist and really listened to it for the first time. This song has truly resonated with me in my heartbreak. I was brought to tears. You never think that someone will leave you when everything is good and nothing you say or ask can ever make them turn around and stay. You will question everything that went wrong and everything that you could have changed but that will never bring them back.

“Why didn’t you stay?”

I ask myself this question everyday. Why didn’t I stay at first and why didn’t he stay at the end. We can torture ourselves forever with these questions and try to find answers but that only stops our growth forward.

This song is the lyrical embodiment of heartbreak. Using the changes of the seasons to describe lost love is perfect. As we go through the changing seasons without the one we love we will learn new things about ourselves and our place in our relationship and be able to move forward and grow. Always move forward and never back and even if you move back, remember the sun will come out tomorrow and a new season will come and you will be just fine my dear.

I never dreamed you’d leave in summer, but now I find my love has gone away. Why didn’t you stay…


Day 14: Transition

“Transitions are an inevitable part of life. We transition from childhood to adulthood. We transition from singleness to being married. We transition form working for others to life as am entrepreneur. Transitions are more complex than going from one season and entering another, but transitions are about successfully handling the time of the in-between”

Everyone goes through changes and challenges in life. In order to grow and improve as people, we need to learn from the things that we learn at the different stages in life. For me, going through a break up has been the biggest transitional moment of my life to date. Not only did I have to learn how to let go of someone I loved, but I also had to let go of a dream and I have never ever had to let go of a dream. Growing up, we are always told to hold on to our dreams to fight for the things we want. For the first time in my life, this didn’t hold true. Dreaming became more complex and I am in the phase of handling the in-between of that situation. I think that first love teaches you a lot about yourself, especially when you lose it. Learning about yourself, and learning how to love yourself is the most imperative way to transition successfully. The things you need will come to you in time, and that is the most important thing to understand. Love where you are today and work on yourself to move forward successfully. Happy Thursday ❤

“Man’s Rejection is God’s Protection”

“Man’s rejection, is God’s protection”

This is a quote that I have been living by lately.

Last week, I was listening to an episode of the Lady Gang podcast featuring Jeannie Mai from The Real. As I was listening, she was discussing a lost opportunity years prior to her success and how that rejection allowed her to find something better and more fulfilling. This quote was enlightening to me and I began to think about all of the times when rejection has spawned an otherwise positive outcome for me.

For example, I had been working in the same seasonal job position from my mid teens into my early 20’s. For the first time in 6 years, I was blindsided when I got an email that stated that my services would not be needed for that upcoming summer. I became frantic and depressed. I took the first job that was offered to me because I was so nervous to be unemployed, even though it wasn’t related to my field. When I went to job orientation, I became suddenly depressed and I knew that it wasn’t for me. I went home and cried but then I suddenly woke up and decided to apply to every job opportunity so that I could focus on my career and not my loss. When I opened my email, the company that I had previously interned at had a position open for me and I jumped at it! I have been there now for 3 years, working in my field of study and loving it.

The rejection in this case was my protection as it allowed me to grow in my career instead of basking in my comfort.

I think about my break up with my ex as well. His rejection was my protection. His rejection allowed me to self reflect and work on the parts of myself that weren’t so great. It also allowed me to learn that self love is the most important factor in life and that we can achieve this through a belief that we have the power to do all things because of a higher power (Call it God or not). I began to believe in the universe and this manifested into me believing in myself. I began to love the others around me more. Mostly, I learned to let go of people and negative situations that no longer served me.

I also learned what I did and didn’t want in a man so that hopefully I will get the chance to get love right in the future.

These were lessons I had to learn.

So, the next time you feel that getting declined for something is the worst thing in the world, always remember this: Man’s rejection is God’s Protection. You won’t see it right away, but you will soon see it manifest into a different and better opportunity.

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Day 9: Flu

“You cannot heal in the same environment where you got sick”

I think that this one is pretty self explanatory. I think that many of us have heard that popular phase, “Don’t go back to what broke you expecting to be fixed” or something like that. This phrase relates to me as I get over my breakup in the sense that the stress from the relationship and the after effects have made me sick mentally through overthinking and emotional pain. In order to move forward, it would serve me best not to look to the past for answers and solace, but to move forward in a more positive light. It takes time to get over sickness and in this case grief is my form of sickness. I need to change my environment (mindset) in order to cure myself of the pain and to grow stronger for the future.

Day 7: Next

“Your next blessing depends on what you leave behind”

Sometimes it is challenging to see that you need to leave something or someone that is so important to you behind in order to see growth in your life. Sometimes, in order to see these changes or personal growth, we do have to leave behind the things and people that no longer serve us. The minute that we release this into the universe, we are able to envision a different future and outcome for ourselves. This will leave us open to discovering our next blessing in any form by which it comes. Leave behind the past in order to be blessed in the future. Honour and work on  yourself in the present.

Let Them Go

This is my Health and Wellness tip of the day: let them go.

Let go of the people who no longer serve a purpose in your life in order to grow.

Don’t get bitter and think that they weren’t for you and that’s why they are gone. Think about the fact that they were for you for a time and that you now need to let them go because you both need to grow.

Thank them, whether internally or externally, for the time and role they spent in your life and then keep on letting your heart be thankful for them walking in and out when they did. Every one you meet that touches you has the power to transform and change your life. Grow and show yourself the power you have gained from their presence. Do not dwell in their non existence in your space, but flourish in YOUR gratitude of their existence in the world. For you would not have had the lessons you had if they were not there, nor would you have been able to find the tools to grow that you needed.

Be thankful and let them go. More people will come, that is a fact. Learn and let go of the ones who have finished teaching you how to be good to all the others.

Almost Over You

I haven’t always been a Jessie James Decker fan music wise, however, this song from her new album Southern Girl City Lights is an amazing one. Almost Over You is a country love song performed by Decker and fellow country musician, Randy Houser. Throughout dealing with my breakup, I have found myself listening to this song quite a bit. The combination of Decker and Houser’s voices make this song such a masterpiece, and paints colour with the lyrics. Whether or not your heart is broken, this is a song worth listening to.