One Week of Eating Clean(ish)

For the past week, I have committed myself to eating clean foods only. I have only bought food twice and I have made nutrient rich lunches and dinners to bring with me to work. I have noticed a few things as I start this lifestyle change journey:

  • I have more energy and I am able to work longer days
  • My focus has been better during the day time hours
  • I am calmer – I don’t feel as angry and bitter
  • I don’t have any desire to buy food unless I really don’t have any more food
  • I actually enjoy meal prepping
  • I still need to establish a cut of time for eating

Things are definitely improving diet wise and I think I can commit to eating better and preparing my own meals. Yes, it can be tough and time consuming at times but it is totally worth it. I will follow up with you all and let you know how things are going.

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40 Pounds in 2019???

Hi Y’all!

I apologize for being super absent on the blog lately but I just haven’t really felt like writing anything. I have composed a set of goals for 2019 which I plan on sharing with all of you very soon, however, I just haven’t been in the mood to go through all of my aspirations for this year. So far, 2019 has been pretty great. It was my birthday on January 24 (24 on the 24th!!!) and I had a great time at a cool bar with a few of my close friends. I have also been incorporating low impact cardio into my daily regime for the past 2 weeks and I have never been more proud of myself for the level of discipline I am showing.

My number one goal in 2019 is to lose 40 pounds. I have seen so many people do it and I think that I can too. I am tired of gaining weight and seeing cute outfits that I would love to fit into, but I just cannot. I have been making little changes to my diet and athletics lately and I hope that these efforts will become a lifestyle change for me overall. My goal is to be in better health long term and to also feel like a cute girl in her 20’s again. After the terrible 2018 I had (and y’all would know if you really followed my blog), I think its time for me to feel like me again and for me to feel happy and amazing again. 2019 is the perfect year to boss up (as Rick Ross tweets daily). I hope that I will be able to update you on my great progress one day soon!

Bye for now my lovelies. getty_1004613044_376718

“Man’s Rejection is God’s Protection”

“Man’s rejection, is God’s protection”

This is a quote that I have been living by lately.

Last week, I was listening to an episode of the Lady Gang podcast featuring Jeannie Mai from The Real. As I was listening, she was discussing a lost opportunity years prior to her success and how that rejection allowed her to find something better and more fulfilling. This quote was enlightening to me and I began to think about all of the times when rejection has spawned an otherwise positive outcome for me.

For example, I had been working in the same seasonal job position from my mid teens into my early 20’s. For the first time in 6 years, I was blindsided when I got an email that stated that my services would not be needed for that upcoming summer. I became frantic and depressed. I took the first job that was offered to me because I was so nervous to be unemployed, even though it wasn’t related to my field. When I went to job orientation, I became suddenly depressed and I knew that it wasn’t for me. I went home and cried but then I suddenly woke up and decided to apply to every job opportunity so that I could focus on my career and not my loss. When I opened my email, the company that I had previously interned at had a position open for me and I jumped at it! I have been there now for 3 years, working in my field of study and loving it.

The rejection in this case was my protection as it allowed me to grow in my career instead of basking in my comfort.

I think about my break up with my ex as well. His rejection was my protection. His rejection allowed me to self reflect and work on the parts of myself that weren’t so great. It also allowed me to learn that self love is the most important factor in life and that we can achieve this through a belief that we have the power to do all things because of a higher power (Call it God or not). I began to believe in the universe and this manifested into me believing in myself. I began to love the others around me more. Mostly, I learned to let go of people and negative situations that no longer served me.

I also learned what I did and didn’t want in a man so that hopefully I will get the chance to get love right in the future.

These were lessons I had to learn.

So, the next time you feel that getting declined for something is the worst thing in the world, always remember this: Man’s rejection is God’s Protection. You won’t see it right away, but you will soon see it manifest into a different and better opportunity.

Some articles:

http://theprayingwoman.com/sometimes-rejection-is-gods-protection/

https://www.huffingtonpost.com/maddisen-k-krown/coping-with-rejection_b_2586145.html

Day 7: Next

“Your next blessing depends on what you leave behind”

Sometimes it is challenging to see that you need to leave something or someone that is so important to you behind in order to see growth in your life. Sometimes, in order to see these changes or personal growth, we do have to leave behind the things and people that no longer serve us. The minute that we release this into the universe, we are able to envision a different future and outcome for ourselves. This will leave us open to discovering our next blessing in any form by which it comes. Leave behind the past in order to be blessed in the future. Honour and work on  yourself in the present.

Day 6: Doubt

“There is a tendency to doubt your growth in the midst of a big leap forward. Hold steady and trust God’s strategy” – Sprinkle of Jesus

For the first time in my life, I have to analyze my role in the negative situations in my life. While I am becoming more self actualized, I do find myself taking steps back and feeling like I am not growing or progressing the way I thought I should be. My break up was my big leap forward as I needed this to happen in order for me to grow and mature as an individual. Maybe all of these negative moments and outbursts are God’s way of showing me that I need to make changes and realization of my behaviours. It is amazing to see how we can change when we realize our wrongs. We may lose people along the way of us making these changes but we have to accept that there will be better and happier moments along the way. I’m excited to see what growth and beauty will come from my dark period and setbacks. Everything good will happen in due time. Love yourself and trust in the process and you can move mountains for yourself ❤

Day 5: Feel

“Watch God take you from feeling disappointed to feeling anointed” – Sprinkle of Jesus

I think this quote related directly to being hopeful. Being hopeful gives us the courage to grow and move into new spaces. Instead of being disappointed when things don’t work out, we should learn to feel grateful that they didn’t and hopeful that something new and better will come. This will help us to accomplish the goals and things we need and not just want. Pray on it and it will eventually come to be ❤.

Day 4: Savage

“Pretending to be a savage won’t heal that hole in your heart” – Sprinkle of Jesus

There is a hole in my heart from my heart break and in dealing with that pain I did treat some of those that were close to me in a unkind way to fill that hole in my heart. Do I feel better? No. I do feel worse, however, being a savage did teach me about myself and my friends. Those who knew me and knew that I was just in pain forgave me, but those who didn’t really know me dismissed me. Being a savage didn’t make me feel better or fill that whole in my heart but it did help me to realize the difference between right and wrong and I will take that into the future.