- I learnt tonight that depression causes us to be fixed in our thoughts and that lack of sleep lowers our will power. Maybe that’s why I ruminate so much? Maybe that’s why I was weak when I needed to be strong? Who knows?
- I have an essay due tomorrow and I have no desire to write it. It is important and it is for the only class I actually have left to take so I really should buckle down and get her done. I am just lazy and lacking motivation I suppose.
- I had a very insightful phone call tonight with a break up specialist and I watched her video on why I wasn’t good enough. She simply stated that all relationships run their course and I guess mine did too. Maybe I need to do an inventory of where I went wrong and contrast it to the things I feel about him in order to progress more so. Maybe I need to stop writing about it. Who knows?